I found out yesturday that a friend from camp died.
He got shot in the chest. 
Goddamn the murder capital of the country.

"A Southern Maryland man died early yesterday after a shooting in Southeast Washington, D.C. police said. Phillip C. Jackson, 18, of the 2500 block of Domingo Road in Bryans Road, Charles County, died shortly after 1:30am. Police said he arrived in a private vehicle at United Medical Center in Southeast with a gunshot wound to the chest. Authorities said they think Jackson was shot in the 1200 block of Savannah Place, where a shooting had been reported a half-hour earlier."

R.I.P Phil. Aa&Sc loves you.

camp was amazing this year, i had so much fun :)
i got my wisdom teeth out last week which has put my on a lot of fun pain pills
i got my own teakettle for my birthday
and my apartment in the landing is pretty damn sweet.

that's all i can think of for this update
life is pretty uneventful for the moment
which is wonderful

so i went to the dentist today to get a mouthgaurd
cause i've been clenching my teeth at night and it's been giving me horrible headaches

and apparently my lower jaw is pretty messed up
so i'm going to need it realigned. my dentist needs a day to analyze my bitemarks, but she said it could be anywhere from needing invisalign to needing oral surgery.

lets hope for the invisalign!

eep.

other than that.
things are going pretty alright

My sister got into Winthrop
I got a place in Seahawk Landing for next year
Camp officially hired me back for all 6 weeks this summer
I got a A on my Japanese test
My bests have made up(!!!)
And a whole bunch of people from camp are visiting me this weekend



Could it be that things are looking up?
Heres for hoping

i like to think of myself as a drama free person
but lately my friendships are falling apart (well it's my two best friends fighting and me being caught in the middle)
and not much is making sense in general

and i'm being reduced to a moping mess who has no one to turn to

at least my roommate is amazing/understanding
and gives really good hugs
cause i've been needing them as of lately

Also, 3 big tests on monday
wonderful

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why don't things ever work out for me

Happy Holidays.
I'm happy to report that there was not a repeat of last year's christmas
that is Coco did not get incredibly sick. thank goodness.

Nothing to exciting to report
i've pretty much been lazing around the house this break.
it's been great
i also took care of my neighbor's neurotic cat

gosh i'm exciting.
i have seen some old friends which has been great.

sometimes theres is a wish
way in the back of my mind
that i would get into a terrible accident of some sort
just so i could see who would come to my hospital room

it's quite selfish of me

so i've been majorly slack with updating and commenting
news in paula-land: i graduated a week ago
my cousins visited which was exciting
i went to uncw orientation it seems like a majority of people there are hardcore christian republicans who drink
so i don't know how i feel about that

and today im leaving forrrrrrrrrr
CAMP
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

ahhh i'm leaving durham soon
this is happening way to quickly
i dont want to go

i didnt get into Carolina.
fuckity

im done with APs!
and theres only like 2 real weeks of school left :)

yesturday we went out to celebrate Adam's birthday at kanki
it was a lot of fun and the food is soooooooo good (yummy tempura)
then we went back to jenasque's and tried to battle but it was wayy to hot outside to be wrestling on a trampoline, so we went inside. jenny and the boys played poker and Lindsey and I had a dance party.
then we all decided to play twister (what is with us and physical games :-D )
when i took adam home i blasted gwen stefani in my car (we both agree she isn't very good) and he was like guhhhhh you suck! i giggled.

today i have lots to do (like get graduation announcemnets in the mail!)
but i'm just energyless
good thing i dont really have homework tomorrow
so maybe i can just relax today and do everything tomorrow

tonight me and adam are gonna go see runaways at DSA
hurrah!

took the stat AP today
the multiple choice wasnt to bad
and the first 5 free response were manageable
but the last one which counts 25% of the grade...
was horrible

our teacher said that she had never seen a linear regression test on the AP before, so we wouldnt have to worry about it. so i didnt review those. guess what #6 was yayyy
i bsed most of the question, but for some parts i put a question mark with a heart next to it hehe
i'm so glad it doesnt affect my class grade...


and oh found out that His Dark Materials will be made into movies
i got my daemon from the website <3


and lastly,
kim is in Michigan this week, so she brought Earl down from boone. if you don't know Earl is cameleon. not only that, he's an old (5 is pretty old for them) sickly cameleon. she said i shouldnt feel bad if he dies while she's gone, because he's been sick for a long time (he got a parasite when he was 3 and never fully recovered) and within the past 2 weeks he's been in horrible shape. so today my dad woke up and saw him leaning on his side, still breathing but extremely cold. today i came home during lunch and he was lying on side, looking absolutely pitiful. i held him for awhile and leaned him against a folded blanket and when i got home today he was completely upside down. he's still alive but he's freezing cold and doesnt seem like he's gonna last the night. he's not even my animal but i broke down when i was holding him at lunch, because it's so upsetting to see such an amazing animal in such bad shape. i really think kim isnt being fair to him, i think he should have been put down 2 weeks ago when his tail died seriously, i think thats a sign that he's hit the point of no return. i know it's hard on kim, thinking of putting him down, but he used to be so proud and angry, that him passively letting you touch him is just to much to handle. well who knows.

i saw spiderman 3 last night with lindsey
it was soooooo good!
then when i got home i watched the first two
cause i am quite the spidy fan <3

today is free comic book day, i want to go
but i have no one to go with :/

anyhoo

i sent in my housing preferences for UNCW
andd i need to study majorly for APs that are next week.
ahh boo, thats gonna suck.

that's it.

Ahh i'm so excited. i know i havnt mentioned this
but for spring break (my SENIOR spring break) my mom is taking me up to the big apple!!
i'm leaving tomorrow and will get back on the 14th.
i'm so excited, i've never been to nyc before. i do believe i will be awe in the size of the buildings.

i promise lotsa pictures
(at the cost of me looking like a silly tourist, which i am hehe)

i got waitlisted for carolina
i wont know if i got in until june
when i've already paid my down payment for a diff college
oh well
i hope i get in
if i get into carolina
i'm defn going there
and if i dont
im gonna transfer because i dont want to go 2 hours away

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Duke lost the NCAA tournament
1st round!!!!!!!!
WTF



i dont want to face the unc fans tomorrow
oh my gosh.
wish me luck

being sad for o reason you can figure out
for over a week
sucks.

sorry about the recent lack of updates
nothing new has happened in my life lately
a lot of work
and a lot of stress as acceptance letters have started coming in
and i'm still waiting on mine


i've also sewed a lot recently
today after homework i resized this AWESOME hanson shirt
that was like 329423804928 times to big
oh hanson
i'll post a pic when i'm less icky

thats about it

Why can life not let me just have a great day
and enjoy that great day
is it really to much to ask
to have a wonderful day
and have the next day be good too?

I went down to feed coco this morning
and he was laying completely out and unresponsive to anything i did
and he was having problems breathing
i got my mom downstairs but i had to get to school
since there wanst anything i could to anyway
so i was late to Euro
which i NEVER am
and was freaking out althrough 1-3
i went home during lunch and my dad left a note saying he had taken Coco to the vet again

When we picked him up at the vet
she said he was hypothermic AGAIN
and since he's getting older
he will probably have this problem a lot
since he can no longer regulate his body temperature.
so friday i am going out and buying a heating pad for him

but ugh today was horrible
but i'm so glad i have wonderful friends who give me huge 10 minute hugs
with out asking any questions.



on the more nerdy note- tonight was a talk by the guy who owned the hotel in rwanda that saved over 1,000 refugees during the genocide. it was amazing to hear his first hand account of the story.
gosh i'm such a humanites nerd!